i was unable to cum over the weekend. i gave up my chance to do that. there were various reasons why, but the main one...........i didn't think i could, or would, cum without Him.

i can no longer, stand in the shower lets say, and play with that infamous shower head. i won't cum. i will want to, but it just won't happen.

i told Master that this morning and He was surprised by the fact that this had happened faster than He had planned. i was surprised He was surprised. Why? Because every single effing ounce of me is His. My mind is set in the right place. Anything Master wants accomplished will happen. And to top it off, i didn't even know He wanted this to happen. i mean i knew He wanted orgasm control, but i didn't know that it would end up just being difficult for me to cum without His presence.

He walked me through being able to this morning. For the most part as soon as Master orders me to get my plug i know i may be getting something wonderful in the end. Not always, but most of the time. Today was no exception to that. The second time He allowed me to cum was indescribable! i never felt that before. The orgasm built up and up and up and was so intense. It was one i will never forget. i just know my body will be very sore tomorrow. i am already feeling my sore muscles. And i love it. i love feeling the pain my body endures from Him. i love feeling Him on me. No matter physical or mental.